Separuh Jiwaku Pergi

Ewahhh.. galaknyaa!

Tapi it's really what i feel now because yesterday mr.H terbang jauh ke sebuah pulau di Indonesia bersama teman2 dia.. lama plak tu sampai ke hari Jumaat dia bersuka ria di sana.. *i know u'll behave kat sana kan?*

Plan nak ikut tapi since baru je start keje, mana boleh amik cuti kan..redha je la!

Not to let me keep on thinking about him and terbawak2 rasa rindu ni.. i keep myself busy at office.. Waktu kerja is from 8.30am - 5.30pm, but yesterday i chose to stay back at d office sampai 7.45pm *perkerja yg BAGUS kan?* and today sampai Jumaat pun plan nak stay back balik lambat jgk! If not, balik rumah je sure meleleh air mata kesunyian..

Till then,

p/s: sbb nak concentrate ngan workload yg banyak nih!

Inikah DugaanMu, Ya Allah?

Orang kata bila dah bertunang ni, kita ni 'darah manis'..

Kenapa mcm tu?

Alhamdulillah, lepas bertunang ni relationship I & Mr.H bertambah rapat n mesra.. kami selesa bercerita pasal wedding plans, career + businesses, future plan *nak settle down kat mana, pasal baby, pasal hari tua etc* YES, we both sangat happy n I totally bersyukur perangai hot tempered tu dah banyak kurang n jadi lebih memahami Mr.H seadanya..

But dugaan datang bukan dr hubungan with Mr.H.. tapi from my future in-law family! We didnt hate each other or what, it just that ade beberapa perkara yg buat I rasa terasa kecik hati. Dulu before tunang, I sangat rapat with Mr.H's family in fact till now pun rapat but ade terdengar suara2 yg x sedap ditelan came fr FMIL n his opah. It started fr comments about the tunang ceremony, then the change of reception plans, about my new biz bla bla.. I did talked to Mr.H about this matter tapi dia ckp maybe I yg cepat terasa n take those comments way too serious *yelah, mestilah u back-up ur mom*..

I banyak2kan berdoa kpd Allah, buangkan rasa -ve dlm hati ni, belajar terima kritikan coz kita x boleh nak pleased semua org.. Masing2 ada citarasa or plan diorng n they can say or do whatever they feel right.. Mr.H selalu pesan, jgn amik peduli ckp2 org, just worry about youself n try to give the best of u.. Herm, sejuk hati bila Mr.H sangat +ve in handling critical situation *even in his life n business matter* even he's 2 years younger than me, he's so matured n very wise! *thats d reason why I love him so MUCH!*

Adat manusia, mudah tergoda dgn godaan syaitan, ada kala I akan teringat2 n rasa marah tu datang balik.. cepat2 beristigfar!

p/s: maafkan penggunaan bahasa tunggang langgang ni sbb ni kata dr hati yg x di edit! Juga doakan kesejahteraan hidup aku & bakal mertuaku ini.

Aku Pasrah!

Hatiku sangat sedih...

Its was like a few of days back that I found out we're not gonna have a joint reception as Mr.H & I planned wayyy before we got engaged.

My fmil, Mr.H aunties n his opah dengan selamba berborak2 during dinner about their plans for the reception. Its gonna take place at their house, this & that bla bla.. Hello!! I was right in front of them and terkebil2 but I managed to senyum and gelak2 *Allah je tahu perasaan i that time*. Bukan i tak suka the plan, it just i wasnt informed about it. In fact, MR.H pun x tahu at all. We both just layankan je plan mereka2 itu.

Habis hancur musnah all my dreams, angan2 etc & i was soo frustrated!!

But i know, fmil is the biggest sponsor nanti.. so xleh nak complaint lebih2. I have to redha and just wait n see what will happend next! Hopefully, semuanya OK!

from Google

p/s: now tgh sibuk mencari designer for nikah n reception & also tukang make-up!


Daa~